Live or Die

"I MUST GO ON AND LIVE, OR LEAVE IT AND DIE"

A line I have built my life on, in more ways than one, and a concept I find myself living according to over and over again. I’ve found something I believe in so much that I’m dedicating my life to it, because I believe that this is what I came here to do. I’m learning how to walk, how to see...

I’d rather burn up in flames than fade away. "It’s the storm that I believe in. It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness." You must take one step in front of the other and keep walking. Even though your muscles strain. Even though your heart aches. Even if you are full of scratches and broken, you must keep going. To grow. To learn. To be. This might mean being broken most of the time, but the reward is greater. The reward is freedom.

I’m not sure about a lot of things, but of this I am sure; until the day I die, I will live. Living recklessly will mean fear or anger, sadness or pain; but I will not let it stop me. At this moment, I am broken but I will move forward because I know for a fact that there are far more beautiful and magnificent feelings and experiences in this world, than there are dark ones, and I know for a fact that we have no other mission in this life than to be as great as we possibly can be. And there is no limit for this. We can be far more unique than we want to believe, because crossing that line to step over to extraordinary means pushing through fear. Facing fear and uncomfort, uncertainty and instability. Being a person who pushes herself to her own limits means being a person who is constantly faced with some kind of fear. May it be mental or physical, You are facing fear, every single day, by doing something your mind or body never did before. But by overcoming that fear you take one step higher on the ladder, and the goal is to take those steps every single day.

The higher you get, the higher the fall will be,
the bigger the fear of falling, the more magnificently breathtaking the view will be.

For several weeks, I've been working on this edition, grappling with the decision of whether to release it or not. In this edition, I express my fears and aspirations in this world of art, and although I'm feeling defeated at present, I am determined to share both my struggles and my unwavering hope and determination.

The impact of NFTs on the world has surpassed my expectations, bringing both positive and negative aspects. While I've had the opportunity to meet incredible people through the NFT world, I've also come to understand that it operates under similar rules as the traditional art world. It's not just about having talent, but also about being part of the right network and having connections.

I have a strong belief that NFTs will play a major role in the future of art, however, it's not exactly how it's functioning now. It's crucial for genuine art collectors to enter the NFT world, individuals who have a true understanding and appreciation for art rather than being swayed by what's popular. Currently, there is still excessive speculation going on. A year ago, I had a different perspective, thinking that if your art was good enough, you could progress and succeed through hard work and perseverance. I've come to understand that success in the NFT world is not just about the quality of your art, but also about being part of the right network of people and having the necessary connections to reach influential figures. It's a reflection of the same dynamics present in traditional art and in society as a whole. This realization has been disappointing and has led me to question the fairness of it all. No matter how talented you are or how exceptional your art may be, if you're not accepted into the right circles, all your hard work and creativity may not matter. This is a reality that's hard to come to terms with.

People tend to buy what's popular and trendy at the time, often from artists who are in the spotlight. Have you considered the multitude of talented artists with breathtaking works that remain in the shadows simply because they haven't been given the opportunity to shine? These artists are truly remarkable, and their work would leave you in awe but they remain in the shadows.

I refuse to compromise my artistic identity and be a copy of someone else just because their work is selling well. I stay true to my own artistic vision and the creativity that flows within me. I may not be influential or well-known, but at the end of the day, I am content with staying true to myself in a world where many artists tend to lose their unique identity.

Thank you for taking the time to read this entry.